| Two months and 26 days, it's been, since I last updated!
With the nicest choice of words, A friend of mine asked me to update... He asked with a sincere tone, "Laura, can I ask you something? Could you make it so I won't see 'June 1st' at the top of your page anymore?" Well, something of that sort .
I don't know why it made me feel as if I really should make the request a reality, but- I decided I would write about a "few" things. Thanks for the nudge, Nathaniel!
...Well, actually, thank you.. Allen, Charity, and Nathaniel, for telling me to update so many times. You all really helped me to retain that urge to write again...
Before I start this post, I would like to ask a lot of you who know Nathaniel pretty well to pray for him as he leads his life into a new atmosphere- college. Pray that he’ll always find comfort, no matter where God leads him. And.. Especially that his home won’t hold him back from being great at everything he chooses to achieve. (Nathaniel, I can’t remember if I mentioned it to your or not, but- I really enjoyed your speech; it almost brought me to tears... It made me swallow my breathe and remember there are so many people that have so much, even while everything they have is so distant from them... I think that’s an area where we can relate. I hope everything goes wonderful for you, while you’re away from home and family! You’ll be in my prayers.)
Well, now that I’m updating and writing, I think I’ll write a short post about what’s really been taking place in my life throughout the past few months.
Day to day.. As I’m sure many of you have experienced, so many things changed with an amazing rhythm. Looking back, with a conscience I thought was broad, I would have never imagined my life would have lead where it has... I would never forget to put first that I know God’s hand has been in every single course and journey. I won’t deny, that on a few nights, I was very prideful and had the gulls to ‘tell’ myself that my life felt like a domino game.. One descent/fall after another. Today, I can look at my past, my journey, and smile... Through all the ‘crucial’ moments, faith, and trust in the Lord, took my heart to a pronounced level..
Who would have thought you could smile while crying? There’s a difference in knowing you can trust, and.....trusting with all your heart. I find it amazing how God created our emotions so accurately and pronounced. How He tests our every emotion, through a course He knows we need to te. Crying with thoughts of verily unreliable trust, and suddenly remembering that God is truly in control..... can create a whole new pulse to your heart.
Throughout the past month and a half, I went from having the most unforgettable, fulling, memorable, loving, sincere ‘employment(I sincerely and honestly don't believe there is a word that can reflect the meaning of what I did everyday..)’ to just a transfer to another job. A job that gave me so much joy simply only if I thought of it... A job that God used to give me strength, patience, love for others, joyousness... and a job that He used to show me my capabilities; a place to show me who I really was and what really gave me sincere happiness. I wish I would be able to convey how walking through doors to such a place could make me forget about everything that was weighed on my shoulders. A building that held and hospitalized one hundred and forty aged and wiser men and woman who had so much to offer to so many people... A building with walls like any other, could make your heart sing with so much jubilated joy... An atmosphere that made my heart shake with anticipation to what I could do, with God’s hand, next. To know, with a sincere affect, that I could make a difference in someone’s life made me really realize how blessed I was to be given such a journey and deep and powerful strength. I slowly gained remembrance, with time(through God’s grace), that just by smiling sincerely, looking one in the eye while speaking to them, listening with your heart and not your ears, making conversation because you do care, hoping for others you thought you never knew, hugging a person with truth and earnestness, caring with a soft touch, being truly kind, making time for another just by simply giving something trivial, and holding patience for one could sincerely make a profound difference in someone’s life. This is a place where I knew every individual’s needs, desires, and, also, wants... A place where I felt so alive, because God provided me sincere ability to know I was endearingly able to offer maybe half as much as they offer me without recognizing. A internal home/place where everything was given silently- and so humbly. A place where joy was given with just by the strength of breathing... A place where God proved kindness could be seen by the blind... A place where I took every single moment to my heart... every moment was so difficult to ever take for granted. A place where a tear reflected how the delight and blessing couldn’t be withheld only inside of a soul.... A place where every word spoken could be a gift to me... This is a place that I could tell you, without hesitation, that I know I felt and lived God’s love every day I spent in there.... I gave a hug to one of them, because I felt love for them.... and because I knew a tomorrow wasn’t always a attainable guarantee for them...or really me. Never did I think a hug to them meant so much warmth, love, comfort, and appreciativeness... As I write this.. I can think of so many wonderful things they have sincerely uttered to me... Their words will never leave my thoughts... they reached so deep in my heart.
Oh, God is so amazing, He’s so gracious... He’s blessed me immensely, through every "fall"... I wish we all had the conscience to remember that we never lose anything, if we believe and trust in the Lord. Even as we’re living the "loss", in this case, ‘losing’ my job for the time being, we need to remember what we have earnestly gained through the experience... A memory lasts longer than a moment. He’s given me so much that is so hard to replace; not even losing my job could take away my blessing of knowing what I still have.... As long as He gives me a mind that still attains memory, I’ll never lose what I have and had. Today I can still feel so richly blessed, as I work a separate life from my "home"...
The story of my life, through this year, only begins there:)... The people who I love dearly, have their life changing moments that only affect my life so much more.. I can’t tell you how good it feels to feel so alive(in so many ways..) with so many immense changes. As I said earlier- one stumble, one rise, one more prayer, one understanding, one gain, and one blessing after another... Living, with love, faith and trust, has truly shown me God's mercy, and His phenomenal truth..
Hm... Well, I should really cut this short, so all of you don’t lose too much interest.. I’ll attempt to revise this, from here.....
Tuesday, the 30th, I start college... Unfortunately, I won’t be starting full time just yet. I’d rather focus more of my time at my job, and start to really sort out my priorities. And schedule everything out this year for the upcoming.
My brother and sister just had their third child, on the 17th! They had a beautiful and bright-eyed gir.l .. who goes by the name of Vivian Hannah. I spent a week and one day there, playing the roll of their "nanny" . Another great and unforgettable foundation in my life... It’s fulfilling to know that you are able to help others... I spent the week cleaning, cooking, taking care of my niece and nephew, and keeping things at home in order for Dana and Paul.
She had a C-section, which after having one requires her to be and stay on bed rest for about a week or more. Unfortunately, their bathroom and their room cleverly happens to be on the top floor! So, I stayed there to be Dana and Paul’s other/extra hand, in a simple form of words. She came back from the hospital only two days after her surgury, and is now, obviously, recovering at home.. She's recovering rapidly, and is doing wonderfully... Praise the Lord for that!
During my time in Ohio, I spent a lot of time with my very best friend... I had, as always, a very memorable time.. I love those nights that include a late night earnest conversation that lasts for hours. A night filled with laugher, smiles, cries, groans, deep thoughts, concerns, cares, and silent sighs.... *Sigh- so many more unforgettable memories and foundations in my life...And rich blessings.... At this point, I’ll let the dots do the "speaking":).
I, also, had a fortunate chance to be there for Nathaniel’s Eagle Scout Award Ceremony. I had a very good time, and I was very moved by his speech(as I said earlier).
I'm sorry to cut everything so short!
Well, I think there’s too much to cover in just one post.. Maybe I’ll come back and write another sometime soonER.
Until then.. God bless, everyone! Have a wonderful and blessed week/month/year!
I'll soon be posting some pictures, also!
~Laura
Bible Verse(s) of the day: Psalm 37:3-8
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. I guess I just haven't been in the 'mood' to write anything significant. I think I slowly lost my inspiration about a week ago. But, deep feelings always come and go
